Lately I have been thinking about my obsession with the new that pushes me to hit the refresh button quite often. In the past few years I changed countries (actually continent), careers, habits, friends, a couple of hair cuts and wardrobe…chasing something new and exciting in the maddening pursuit of happiness! I became a master in changing and adapting myself to new situations to a point that I started losing the feeling of belonging somewhere, the feeling of having roots to keep me grounded.
With this post I am not trying to generalize or to categorize people into different groups based on common characteristics. However, it is undeniable that (for whatever reasons) there are people who are not afraid of starting a new path when the old one doesn’t fit anymore and people who prefer feeling the comfort of what is known. I belong to the first group. I am a rebel that is always seeking new opportunities and never stops fighting to pursue a dream or to achieve great accomplishments. It is like having wings to fly around and I have flown around a lot and I have learned….
I learned that there is nothing more exciting than a fresh start, nothing more exhilarating than realizing your own dreams. I learned that dreams come true, not free. Most of all I learned that all changes do bring some dose of melancholy because of what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves and there is no abracadabra around there. I read somewhere that “we must die to one life before we can enter another” and I couldn’t agree more.
However, the most important thing that I have learned is about myself and the fact that despite my rootless flying around I need some stability and a sense of belonging…It took a long road to get here…a path full of detours and mistakes but I finally realized that I need to grow roots somewhere. Perhaps it was just a matter of knowing when enough was enough! The main challenge is that I tried to change my nature many times but I failed. Perhaps because roots and wings are two apparently contradictory elements! So I guess now I just have to figure out how it is possible to put down my own roots without losing my own wings.